Thursday, December 30, 2010

You're Not To Blame!

I don't hate you. I actually believe in you and everything that you stand for. I believe that you are patient. I believe that you are kind,that you do not keep record of wrong doings, that you do not boast; and anything else positive that comes along with you. Love, it is you that can turn my frown upside down. You bring the sunshine out after the rain. You make me smile at random moments of the day just thinking about your goodness. Love,it is you who can turn world hate into peace,bring together what has been separated, heal what has been wounded, fix what has been broken.
I apologize for those who say F*** love, love is for suckas, I'll never love again! I first and foremost apologize because I have too, angrily and bitterly spoken those words at one point of my life. Then I realized! Love it is not you who we should be mad at, it is not you who we should shut out of our lives. Love does not hurt,cheat,lie, and BS us: PEOPLE do! Female and male, neither are different; she plays the games just as well as he does. So what does that mean?
According to the calculations that both my heart and mind are currently making at this moment, it means we need to stop shutting out love and learn to shut out those people! I don't say this with the intentions of telling you to blame EVERY man or woman that comes in your life for the hurt you've previously been through,no not at all! Just the ones who did it:-) No seriously, it is not Love's fault neither is it the next person who walks into your life that you've been hurt along the way. Healing takes time,this I understand,but that doesn't mean that what we once lost in one cannot be restored in another.
Before it is thought that I'm just being another emotional female rambling on about love and all types of mushy things to say, understand my point. Love is powerful; when done the right way! That's what we lack,loving the way love was intended. People say I love you and then turn to perform all the actions that display anything, but those words! In conclusion people are bamboozled to believe that love should and is what hurts because those were the words used during the course of those actions.
Well i know the truth! So I end this to love, knowing that you would never intentionally hurt me,tear me down,degrade or use me. Love I have the understanding that you are NOT the butterfly feeling i get in my stomach when I am around him,but you are a verb; ACTION! Love when you feel like it and when you don't. Love truly and freely! Love genuinely!Love boldy!
To EVERY family member,close friend,special someone; I LOVE YOU!
Tiana Tare'

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Can I Please You?

I cant please everyone! As much as you would love that to be so, ITS NOT! People including myself get caught up trying to do for him, her and them; forgetting about YOU! There has been several occasions where I've tried to do so much for others that i ended up hurting me. People, please understand that we are only human. Humans are imperfect; we make mistakes and we have flaws. The sooner that is realized the sooner there will be less judgment; the sooner there will be more understanding.
I sometimes feel like what you do to put a smile on one person's face angers another. What you do to show one you appreciate them, makes another jealous;its a damn lose lose situation at times. The result only ends in stress, confusion, lack of appreciation, feeling unacknowledged and everything else negative i can pull out of the dictionary. What makes it worse is when you don't intend to make any one person feel less than the other, but still they somehow fathomed this idea in their head, that, that is in fact exactly what you were trying to do!When people have one contemplation set in their head and you try to refute that, its like trying to tell a minister God is not real!  
I'm tired, i really am of what she didn't like and what he thought should have went this way. Excuse my french but, F* your feelings! I say this because while I'm trying to buss my behind to make you and everyone else happy, you are going to think what you want. This is not the bedroom, i don't give a damn detail for detail how you want to be pleased. This is life; where not everything goes according to plan. This is life where the smallest, most innocent thing to me may look like the biggest most dramatic thing to you! That is fine until you conjure the idea that you're right and there is no ifs, ands or buts about it. Everyone is entitled to feel or think as they wish, but it becomes a bigger issue to me when you perceive off assumptions rather than facts.
So to you, you, and you with the stick stuck up your behind, thinking the world owes you something, think again! People are only capable of but so much! Remember to appreciate a person for what they do for you whether it be big or small. Remember that the world does not revolve around you, meaning there is someone else that needs pleasing too; someone else who needs a friend; someone else who needs love. There is a reason for everything and not every reason may be known,but that does not mean it isn't there.
Til Next time...
Tiana Tare'

Thursday, December 16, 2010

"Everybody Dies but Not Everybody Lives"

Day after day goes by and people worry, hell I worry too. Some of us worry where our next meal will come from, some worry will that next paycheck be enough to pay all the bills; can i go here, can i afford that! All of these worries consumes our lives and we forget to do the root of that word; LIVE! Of course I am not saying to ignore the responsibilties we develop as we mature, but somehow we have to figure out a way to enjoy the time we have here while we can. This world we live in, that time we wake up each morning whether it be to the sun shining or the rain falling; we take it for granted. Not everything fun and worthwhile has to costs either, simply doing what you love to do means enjoying life. Simply being around the people you love and rejoicing in that time means enjoying life. Simply taking time out of all the stress and finding a moment to smile, laugh, dance, say i love you; means enjoying life.
Im not perfect, no one is, but i try to remember all these things because when we no longer exist; that is all! Theres no more time to speak how you feel, do what you love, hug him/her, share moments with those who mean the world to you. All we have is today; to make a change, to be a better person, to do what we wont be able to tomorrow. 
So many thoughts going through my head; loved ones passed away, friendships broken, relationships ended. Theres so many times i have said to myself, "Damn i should have said this, damn i wish i could have done this." When in all actuality i should have just done it. Time waits for no one and opportunities are not just handed to us. What we want to say, we have to say it, and the things we want to do; we must do. There are some people who no longer have a life to live, but we still have a chance.Dont be the one to hold you back. Stop waiting and make it happen. LIVE LIFE!